I always told myself, I would never be one of those that disappear from deviantART without saying a word. I was a mom already, with tons of projects but I still could manage being an decent CV and bringing the community fun events (I hope?). It turns out that I'm a huge hypocrite. I became what I didn't want to become. Sure, I could blame the fact that I now have 2 children that depend on me or that I've been working more and more for my business but the truth is that I feel like an impostor. I lost interest in creating art. I start projects in my head but never follow through. I haven't even posted on my recipe blog in 3 months.
My favorite memories of being on dA is being a CV and creating events and articles. The Community is what I've always loved most, it's what made me want to become a Volunteer in the first place. So why did I disappear? I'm not sure. Does this journal mean I will come back and dedicate more time to the community as a member? I don't know... I feel like I got off that train and somehow it's moving too fast for me to get back on.
So for now, I read journals but I don't look at art very much. I'm on my way out I think. I'm not sure yet.. Part of me is feeling melancholy for my inactivity, the other part is moving on quietly.
For those that really want to stay in touch, I'm on facebook.